Errrr.... What To Wear Today??

You are in front of your closet, standing there for so long looking at the rows of your hanging clothes and yet you are still thinking that you have no clothes to wear! Have you ever encountered this before? I bet you have.. This is the MAJOR issue for all the women around the world!!

As for myself.. this has always been my problem. I don't know why but it always happen every time when I want to choose a cloth to wear, I always feel that I don't have anything to wear. Could this be one of the SPD Symptoms? Hahahha.. help me!!

I was a 'tomboy' at my young age. My kind of outfit was only jeans and T-shirt. I wear baju kurung (forced by my mom) only during Raya. I feel more comfortable with pants and shirts. I started wearing dress or skirt and had long hair when I was 18years old. It felt so awkward at first but after a while I tend to like it as it made me look more feminine.

When I finished my college and started working, I learned to dress up and started buying clothes to fill up my wardrobe. Having money on your own, buying clothes has never been a problem. The problem was only "What to wear for today?"

It is an endless problem till now. I sometimes also purposely burst my purse just to get a new cloth on certain occasion. It is like I don't have any cloth to wear right?? !! But seriously... it always feels like I don't have clothes to wear.

I buy clothes whenever I feel I want to or on certain special occasion. There are still few clothes hanging in my closet that still not worn yet. I know this not good but trust me.. I am trying my best to stop this kind of craziness.

I do sometimes feel guilty when cleaning up my wardrobe, I have to get rid some of the clothes that I feel not suitable to me anymore, out of fashion or maybe because I just don't like it. Well.. the 'guiltiness' would only last till I buy another new cloth!

Once if I stop thinking of "What to wear today?" and feel that I have lots of cloth to wear... my problem solved!!

Bila Tanganku Tiada Kesenian

Bagi je lah akak resepi kek apa sekali pun... akak confident akak bole buat.. setakat ni lah.. dah macam2 kek akak eksperimen..semua kira jadi lah...

TAPI jangan suruh akak menghias atas kek tu.. memang FAIL. I've attended two classes on how to design a cake - from butter cream to fondant. Masa dalam kelas.. pergh... rasa macam tak percaya akak bole hasilkan bunga, kelopak,  rumput rampai, daun yang sungguh perfect from buttercream dan juga fondant. Tu belum lagi yg ropol2.. ala2 ombak rindu keliling kek. Bangga je bawa balik kek ke rumah tunjuk pada encik suami dan anak2.

Seperti biasa akak ni.. confident level kekadang tinggi tak bertempat.. terus semangat keesokkan harinya memborong segala macam jenis nak design kek tu. Jenama nak yang bagus2 je - WILTON. 

Tak cukup dengan memborong barang2.. siap promo kat adik beradik and sedara mara kut sesiapa nak order cuppies or cake. Ye ah.. dah gi belajar.. barang semua dah beli, memang confident habis.. hehehhe..

Akak masih ingat lagi.. first order dari officemate sepupu akak. Dia suruh buat cuppies pastel color dan ada flower atas tu. Teruja sungguh bila dapat order ni. Bila kek suma dah siap dibakar, akak dah buat topping pastel color.. perfect tapi bila sampai bab nak bunga2 ni.. Ya Allah.. menangis akak. Menangis dan tertekan pasal kenapa tak bole buat bunga cantik sama macam dalam kelas hari tu. Dah habis setengah mangkuk butter cream duk test tapi bunga yang keluar sungguh hodoh dan comot!

From there I know, I memang takda kesenian langsung. Idea ada tapi nak mengolahkannya memang tak boleh. Last2 akak buat juga bunga2 dan corak2 seperti yang customer akak order tu.. nasib baik ah dia tak cerewet. Dia puji sedap, cantik tapi akak rasa macam dia saja nak jaga hati akak.. hehehhe.. Akak tak putus asa lagi masih ambil order kerana berpegang pada prinsip "gagal sekali bukan bermakna gagal selamanya". Tragisnya akak masih rasa akak gagal walau dah banyak kali mencuba. 

Yang herannya, ada pulak regular customer yang suka duk ulang order. Akak masih ambil order tapi yang mana dah biasa dan rapat je. Takut tak elok orang marah. Setakat nak buat untuk makan anak2 dan suka2 boleh ah. Kalau nak jual rasa macam bersalah je. Orang lain buat lagi perfect dan cantik.

Lama kelamaan akak pun dah stop buat design2 atas kek ni suma. Kalau takat orang nak order kek yang takde hiasan atas tu, akak tak kisah nak buat. Kat Oman ni pulak.. akak ada ah buat beberapa kek yang memerlukan hiasan di atas.. tertekan jugak lah. First kerana lama tak buat.. kedua memang tau kalau buat sure comot.

Nasib baik ah encik suami dan anak2 volunteer nak tolong. So deorang ni lah yang merodek atas kek2 ni suma.. It was not bad actually hasil kerja tangan deorang tapi akak masih rasa malu pasal tak secantik dan perfect mana pun.

Kalau suruh akak ambil kelas lagi atau brush up my skill in this area - tak sanggup rasanya.. Tak sanggup nak stresskan diri dan masa untuk rodek benda ni semua. Hehehhe.. Biarlah orang lain yang lebih pandai buat.

Kita tak boleh tamak nak buat semua. I always believe in that. Do what you can do not what you think you can do especially if it involves other people.

Now.. sila jamu mata hasil2 kerja tangan akak yang tak seberapa masa zaman dolu2.. hehehhe

Walaubagaimana pun.. akak tetap berbangga dengan hasil kerja tangan akak yang tak seberapa ni.. (sorry ye.. sapa nak puji diri sendiri lagi kan... :p)

44

Number 4 is considered an unlucky number in Chinese, Korean, Vietnamese and Japanese cultures because it is a homonym with the word "death". Due to that many numbered product lines skip the "4" e.g: house & building no, cell phones like Nokia with no series with a 4 and more. Manyak suwei oh.. cina cakap..

Pergh..... scary right? What about the number 44? Could it be double unlucky number?

I turn 44 years old today. Syukur Alhamdullilah sangat2.. I woke up in the morning feeling blessed as I could still see my husband lying beside me and children who were still sound asleep.

At the age of 44, some consider I still look young (perasan sikit), even younger than my age.. and some say that I am consider old - ni budak2 ah cakap.. hehehhee.. Nevertheless I am happy with who I am today and what I have in my life now.

I am a happy woman with a cheerful husband and proud mother of six children. At this age, I've achieved mostly parts of my dreams and wishes. If you ask me - what else do I want in my life? Of course as a normal human being, there are still 'unfinished' matters and never ending wishes and lusts. Hahahaha..

Things that most matter to me now is my children's welfare. As for now I know that they are well taken care of, but what worries me is when I am not around anymore. I always pray and pray that I will still be alive healthy to see all my children finish their studies from University and be able to secure a job.

I also want to always be in a good health to be able to continue doing what I like to do and also treasure my life with hubby till our golden age.

Besides that.. I also want to go and visit more places all around the world and collect more handbags and handbags!!

So if you say number ''44" is an unlucky number - you got it wrong! It is a lucky number to me as I am still able to breath and live my life happily.

Thank you to all my family and friends who have sent their birthday wishes to me. It is so thoughtful and means a lot to me.

"One year older doesn't mean that you are getting old but you are actually a year beautifully matured"

Puisi Untuk Suamiku

Suamiku,

Ketika usia kita makin menganjak

Aku teramat bersyukur 

Kerna kau tidak pernah jemu untuk bersamaku

Kita selalu berbicara tentang hari tua kita

Bagaimana kita akan menghabiskan sisa usia kita

Aku jua tidak pernah jemu memanjatkan doa

Agar kita dapat sentiasa bersama 

Untuk meraikan hari-hari istimewa kita

Selamat hari lahir suamiku

Semoga dikau sentiasa diberkati Allah

Di kurniakan segala rahmat dan kebaikan

Aku ingin sentiasa bersamamu

Pada detik ini, tarikh ini dan ketika ini

Pada setiap tahun untuk meraikan hari lahirmu ini

Aku ingin mengukir kenangan kita

Bersama permata permata hati kita

Agar mereka sentiasa ingat dan peka

Bahawa aku ini sentiasa mencintai dan menghargaimu.

Happy birthday to my dearest husband.
No matter how many years passed, you will always be the man of my dreams.

It Feels Like Yesterday

“Childhood friendship is the most beautiful memory that can’t ever be replaced”

Ask anyone out there and everyone will agree with this quote. Everybody has their own special times and memories during childhood and so do I.

I guess the best time was during my school days, the days when I was still young and innocent. We had no Ipad, PS2, Xbox or whatever kind of gadgets and tablets. We also didn’t have any satellite TV around that time. No Facebook or Twitter.

What I knew was, wake up in the morning – go to school – come home – sleep and the routine repeats for the next day. Our kind of entertainment was only playing masak2, police & thieves, hide & seek, galah panjang and more outdoors activities… but I still feel that they were the best times that I ever had in my childhood time.

27 years after high school I am still in contact with a few friends till now. Some of the friends just disappeared from my life until the Facebook was invented! Thanks for that anyway.. I was a bit late with this FB thingy, which just joined 3 years ago.

Only then.. I got to be connected with my school friends one by one. It is a blessed as we got to see and update each other’s life virtually. Though some of us were thousand miles apart, we can still chat and talk like we were young.

During my recent trip back to Malaysia, I managed to catch up with a few childhood friends. Due to the time constraint, I wouldn’t be able to gather and see many of my girlfriends plus I guess I was not among the popular one in school.. hahahhaha..

This is my picture with Zaza. She is currently having a lung cancer. Oh my dear friend, I always pray for you. I always pray that you will get better and be strong healthy.

I was also being able to meet Syamie. Though we only had a couple of hours together, it meant so much to me. Both of us were talking like a bullet train catching each other’s life.

This is my always-beautiful buddy – Abby. During our school days, she was always the famous and popular one. The one with pretty face who would turns everybody’s head. She was always my partner in crime! Hahahha.. I miss u so much Abby. I miss the days we always had fun together.

I am also got to meet Milah who is now “Datin”. She is now looked so pretty, Yuana and also the always cute cheeky smiley face, Wan Silmina. I always remember Mina’s happy smiling face.

Last but not least – my always BFF – Hazidah. I always make a point to meet her and also Fairuz whenever I got back to Kedah. This time around we were missing Fairuz as she couldn’t join us.

I am pleased though these were only a few that I could meet. After 27 years I guess we just never change!! All of you will always be in my heart my dear friends.

Oman... I am home!

After 3 weeks in Malaysia, I am currently back to my home sweet home in Oman. Yes..!! Back to reality and no more holiday..

Most of our times in Malaysia were spending moments with family, friends and running some errands. We go out almost every day! Of course, this was not what my children enjoyed but we had no choice but to drag them along.

Towards the end of our time in Malaysia, all of us just couldn’t wait to get back to Oman. I guess it was probably because we just felt unsettled with our luggage around and also knowing the fact that we only have time limits there.

Well.. now I am missing my father, Mak, relatives and friends there. I am also bit disappointed not to be able eating some of my favorites food. Yeah.. ‘makan’ has always be the main agenda but with the time limits and also the limitation of my tummy that won’t be able to eat so many times a day – meleleh air liur je lah sekarang…

Insyaalah if time permits, I will be back again to my beloved country. 

Balik Kampung!

Just like others, I am too excited and looking forward to ‘balik kampung’. Tonight is our flight going back to Malaysia. Yeehaaa…

We are lucky, as Eid falls on the summer school holiday. We will be able to spend more time with our beloved back in Malaysia.

I am almost done with my packing except for the the little things that can be packed last minute, that can still wait…. while I am updating my post here!

Thinking about going back to Malaysia… hmmm… weeks ago I already had a long list of ‘what to do’, ‘where to go’ and ‘what to eat’. Excited! Excited!!

I am also cannot to wait to see my father, Mak, my other children and relatives.

Well.. to everyone who will be going back to balik kampong – have a safe journey. Biar lambat asalkan selamat dan ingatlah orang yang tersayang menanti anda.

Picture by : www.visualphotos.com

It is just an illustration to show how excited we are!