Durian oh Durian

I am now at Malacca. Came back to visit Mak, Ayah n for durians. My mother in-law called me two weeks ago informing that "durian dah banyak gugur… balik lah makan.." I was jumping when hearing that. Every year me n hubby always missed our home durian’s season. It’s always that we got the tempoyak part!

But now this year I am be able to enjoy it. The moment I arrived yesterday evening, Mak got the durians for me n Faizah to eat. Both of us had 2 durians each! Huh.. memang sodap.. For my hubby, u don’t worry coz there a still a lot for u. Insyaalah u will be able to taste it.

On the other hand, Nabila n Hakeem who loves rambutan so much were so excited to see the yellow rambutans generously hanging on the trees. They love it so much. Running around from one tree to another. Every year the durian trees behind the house never fail us. It’s always the supply is more than the demand.

Indeed every year Mak jadi orang kaya during this time. The same regular people every year will come n buy the durians from her. And today she treated us break fast n lunch.. :)

One Year Old

One year ago, today is the day when I started as a blogger. What drives me to have my own blog, my own space n my own voice virtually is mainly of course after seeing almost everybody around me has one n why not me? Then I started to be so obsessed to it that I made a point to have a posting everyday. It’s not like I am perasan that everybody is looking forward for it but it’s just the feelings that I guess all bloggers have.

It did happen at one peak that I felt so lazy n no idea even to write a single line. But that still didn’t make me forget that I’ve a responsiblity to my own blog. When looked thru to all my previous postings, mostly were my thoughts n feelings of my day to day life. And it does still continue till now. Stories n experiences that I love to share with all my readers.

On top of all the excitement n enthusiasm of posting out stories, I will never forget the ‘tragedy’ which at that time had stirred my days. I am not like those one of the politicians, artists, celebrities or activist. Whatever in their blog are always the hot n sensation issues.

What are posting in my blog here may only interest to a small crowd that knows me or maybe someone that just like to read what I write here. I know that I can’t stop people to read n condemn n even to hate what’s written here. This is the risk that I have to take. Macam artis n bagus ah pulak.. hehehehehe..

Anyway things happen for reasons. I got to know the real friend that can be trusted n the one that should be avoided. That’s all about life.

Whatsoever I will never stop writing n posting what I want. I would like to take this opportunity to say MILLION THANKS to all my readers that I know out there n even those that I don’t know (silent reader) for knocking n visiting my space.

Happy Birthday ‘voguemom.blogspot.com’.

The Therapy

I need a break. My mind now seems so tired n stressed out. I just got the price from Mr Contractor for the cost of our house renovations. The price given was just toooo mucchhhh n way out from our budget. We are not very happy about it. Now I’m waiting for them to revise the entire unnecessary n unreasonable quotes.

So for the remedy, I need some ‘fresh air’. I just need to stroll along in the area where they have big shops or Mall which sell all the things that I love. Ever heard that the best therapy for woman is shopping? Ehem.. So today I went to Jalan Tunku Abdul Rahman. I bought materials for our baju raya. YES! At first I don’t really looking forward for Eid as maybe I might just have to celebrate it with my kids.

But when hubby gave his home visit plans, I was so excited. He will be around during Eid. And this will be our first time to celebrate Eid Aidil Fitri in Malaysia (since we’ve been away for so long).

I am actually not good in choosing these kain ela. Believe it or not, all these while my mom was the one who bought for me the materials. And after being away for so long, baju raya seems not to be the priority. So I just wear those I had before n don’t really bother to make new one.

Until today n being there alone, I was totally lost n confused. But at last managed to get what I think suit for all of us. So I’ve settled the girls part except for boys. This I have to wait till my hubby is back home.

By then I hope that our house will be ready especially my kitchen. I plan to make some kek lapis Sarawak (our all time favourite). And this time I don’t have to worry about the stock ingredients. This time I can lavishly put in my best secret recipe! Kalau masa kat Oman, kedekut gitu.. jimat cermat..

So I hope when I see Mr Contractor tomorrow, he will give me the good price.

The Guiltiness

Did u ever face a situation where u feel bad or guilty if u want to do something? ‘Do something’ here means like u might destroying something that already in place. Example like u make a cake with a beautiful icing decoration on it that u love so much till u feel like u don’t even want to cut n spoil it. Or maybe u have tighten n straighten up your bed sheet neatly n u feel bad if u sit on it unless it’s a bed time.

What about when u are on a strictly diet programme. You paid thousands Ringgit for that n u can’t eat this n that. What about u pay for the expensive membership n go to the gym everyday. Even hire a personal instructor. Follow all the do’s n don’ts. You have sustained avoiding it until one day u really craving of wanting eating something that u like so much, would u do it?

As for me, I sometimes have this guiltiness obsession within myself. I am very concern about my weight. I am 5ft 7in tall with 6#kg. My weight is considered ok with my height. But the very ambitious me who always not happy with the number, trying so many ways to reduce it!

I was very skinny when young n after gave birth n getting older it’s so difficult for me to get back to the weight that I want. I did actually tried the slimming tea (didn’t work), slimming cream (didn’t work) n exercise (worked but slow). So far the best weight reducer program n the excellent result that I had achieved was during the time I breastfeed by two younger kids.

I lost my weight tremendously. I just love my body at that time. I can eat anything what I want n remain slim at the same time. I breastfeed my last baby – Hakeem for two years. After a few months stopped my body just kept flabby here n there. The ‘spare tyres’ developed at the area that is so difficult to get rid off.

As for the solution, on the safer n sensible way I am doing a regular exercise. Though the result is slow, but I am achieving it now. The main thing is u can never get it easy. Exercise is one thing n your diet is another thing.

This is where my guilty of eating this n that comes. I love chocolate but now I rarely eating it. I have stopped drinking fizzy n sweet drinks. I limit myself eating rice 2times per week. But I can’t stop myself eating curry, masak lemak, oily fried mee, kuetiaw n all those malay foods. Oh.. it’s so tough ah..

The temptation is so hard to resist. Last Saturday I had a slice of chocolate mud cake. It’s so yummy. I made curry mee for Sunday lunch n today I had Nasi Lemak for my breakfast. I broke the rules. And to amend it, I keep telling myself if u feel good eating it – go ahead. But at the same time don’t stop exercise. And that will make me feel less guilty.

It’s not easy to be easy. Sometimes I can feel so terrible guilty after eating something. Regret that I didn’t stop n control myself. I am not aiming for the Miss World figure but I just want to look nice n confident with myself. Susah kan jadi perempuan? Sometimes dah mcm kufur nikmat pulak. But sometimes I just bantai je.. I don’t care. I told myself, eat while u can eat because if u r sick u can never eat n enjoy the food anymore.

The Relocation

This morning I had finished relocated all the boxes which all this while resided at our temporary store – the new house. Our ‘harta karun’ from Oman n Miri. The job started at 11.00am n ended at 3.45pm. When I first called the lorry man, I told him that he has to bring extra workers for all those heavy n many boxes.

When came this morning, I saw one man n a lady. The lorry man himself is 65 years old n of course he’s the boss n won’t do the ‘carrying’ part. I really felt sorry for those two workers. The distance from my new house to my rented house here is just 3km. We had to make a 3 delivery trips since he just brought a small lorry.

And when the job was over, I felt so relieved. I had finally managed to empty the house for the people to start doing the renovations.

I had actually sorted out some of the boxes n gave away some of the things. But still there are lots of boxes which some of it I can’t recall what’s inside. Especially those which from Miri.

(the room before the transformation)

I didn’t want to open it when it was there coz afraid of making more mess. Now I’ve put all the boxes in one of the room in my rented house here. I guess I have to start opening n sorting out box by box.

(after the transformation - don't ask me where i put those beds & cupboard!)

Nabila n Hakeem were so excited to see the boxes which stated ‘toys’ n ‘computer’. They were non-stop begging me to open those. I told them to wait till we move to the new house. It’s enough with the mess n toys that they currently have.

So for the time being, I have to bear with all the cramped boxes in the house.

Thank God It's Friday

Thank God it’s Friday. I am so happy when comes to Friday. It’s the end of the day of my kids’ schooling for the week. And it means it’s the end of the day that I have to rush in the morning – preparing breakfast n jammed in the traffic while sending them to school. I hate that everyday I have to go thru the heavy traffic. There is never one in a day that the Federal Highway is smooth without jam!

When it’s Friday meaning that I can stay up late watching TV, though I tried to but always fell asleep on the couch. And the best thing is the next morning I can wake up a bit late than usual, which actually it seldom happened coz I can’t force myself to sleep after Subuh. What a waste ahh.. But that precious moment I either sitting down or lying on the bed thinking about myself, hubby, kids, home n especially those sweet memories.

Then on that Saturday morning I will go out with my children having our weekly breakfast at kedai Mamak. Then send them to Art class while I am having time for my own – window shopping. Saturday n Sunday are always my day off for cooking. It’s my kids’ day n they can request to eat anything n anywhere.

And most of all I am happy n excited with ‘today-Friday’ is because I have another two Fridays before I can meet n cuddle my beloved hubby *wink*.

The Final

This morning I went to see my I.D n the contractor regarding the renovations of our house. Today we finalized everything on the materials. As for now I think I’ve decided almost everything about the raw materials n colours except for the furniture.

According to the Mr Contractor, order has to be confirmed before end of the month. As most of the suppliers will jack up the price on everything. Apa lagi.. minyak naik harga punya pasal lah.. So in order to secure the old prices, we have to place an order n dump in some deposits.

This Monday I will be meeting them again with the ‘figure’ for the whole project. We have informed them our budget. Hopefully with the things increased here n there, it will not give so much impact to us.

I just can’t wait for the house to be ready. The house is all the sweat n effort that we had all these years to make it as our dream home. The home sweet home for my beloved family.

On the other hand, today I received the water bill stated that the 1st 20m3 water bill has been paid by KDEB (government of Selangor). My total bil is RM6.18 n paid by them RM4.82. And I have to pay the balance RM1.35. Hmm… not bad ahh.. :)