What I See, What I Feel

This morning after sent my kids to school me, hubby n my dad went down to KL. We had our breakfast at Warung Mak Wanjor, Kampung Baru. This is actually hubby’s favourite place n my bro too. I used to eat nasi lemak antarabangsa. They introduced n recommended me to try Mak Wanjor’s (bersungguh rekomen mcm ada share).

To my taste bud, the nasi lemak ok lah… tak tau tang mana yg deorang duk cakap sedap sangat. Even nasi lemak antarabangsa that I tried recently during ramadhan was not the same anymore like it used to be. Anyway it’s worth to drive all the way there to taste this famous nasi lemak.

After that we went to Keramat to pay a visit to my grand mom’s pusara. After finished reading yasin I wondered around to see the nearby pusara. I was actually admired the modern design n stones that were put on the pusara. Some were neatly arranged with flowers n small trees planted on top of it.

While I was looking n stopped at one unknown pusara I told hubby that the boy was so young when he died. He was born in 1988 n the son of somebody’s (anak Dato’). Suddenly there was a couple came near to me n asked if I was looking for somebody’s pusara. I told the lady that I visited my grand mom’s n now just wondered around.

Without asking she then told me the pusara that I was looking at was her son. Her son died because of the tragedy at Bukit Antarabangsa last December. She has one son n one daughter. Three of them were safe as they were sleeping upstairs but unfortunately not his son as he was sleeping downstairs.

Her son was very close to him that everybody said that he was anak ketiak mak. The parents went to his graduation day recently to collect the cert for him. This year raya was the first raya without him. I was clueless when she told me about his son. I told her “Allah sayangkan anak kakak” and she answered me “ Ye… dan kami juga sayangkan dia” which then she started crying.

My heart went out to her. I can understand how she feels as I have children too. Though I don’t know the boy, I am very sure that he was a nice, kind boy that loved not only by his parents but also to everybody that knew him. I left the unknown lady with lots of things in my mind. What if this happen to me?

It was 11am at that time n the weather was quite hot. Quite hot, humid n uncomfortable to some people that might thing it’s not a suitable time to be at the graveyard but to the lady, a mother she was probably missing n was thinking a lot about his son that she don’t mind to be there at anytime of the day.

May Allah have mercy on her son and grant him a place in Jannatul Firdaus Aameen.

Our Raya Open House

Yesterday we had our first raya open house at our home. The caterer came at 10.00am to deliver food and setting up tables n chairs. 10min after that my mother in-law, sister in-law n nieces arrived from Malacca. It then followed by other guests who were non-stop flowing till mid night.

We invited mostly relatives n close friends. It was a long n tiring day for me but I was really happy n satisfied. The food that we ordered was just nice to cater all the guests. Tiada pembaziran..

I got to meet my ‘long lost’ colleague – Kak Ema (zaman2 kegemilangan during my career day) which also happens to be my hubby’s school senior. I was very pleased to see her.

Beside that my cousins that I’ve not met since my mom passed away (8 years ago) came at the last minute at night time.

My children had their good time too as Nadira who invited her school friends n Nabila, Hakeem who were non-stop playing with their cousins.

The event indeed was a success to me n hubby. We got to meet our friends beside the regular ones, relatives, n also my dad who came down from Kedah n not to forget my mother in law too. Insyaalah ada rezeki next year boleh buat lagi...

Nil

There is nothing interesting happens in my life lately. It was just the normal routine of my day’s activities. I received visitors frequently this week. Stayed up late till midnight yakking. Then in the morning woke up with heavy sleepy eyes.

My dad is coming tomorrow n the day after tomorrow we’ll be having Raya open house at home. Then I guess there will be something exciting for me to tell about. Meanwhile just stay tune n cheers..

Mr Charming

My son, Hakeem is such an adorable boy that always melts somebody’s heart once the person gets to know him. His class teacher always comes to see me with stories n scenarios which on occasion Hakeem played his Mr Charming role.

Since he was in Nursery I noticed that he would has girlfriends that would love to be his buddy. Three weeks ago in the class the teacher asked all the students to close their eyes, relaxed n listened to the music that she gonna play. She played at first fast loud music n ended with relaxing calming slow music.

Then she asked each of the students what they were thinking n imagining while they closed their eyes. When came to Hakeem’s turned, he said “I was imagining that I will do anything for you. Anything that you want me to do” And that answer really pleased n touched Ms Andrea his class teacher… hehhehehehe

She told me that Hakeem again played the Mr Charming n melted her heart. Yesterday again the teacher came to me showing Hakeem drew a picture using computer which actually a picture of him dancing with Ms Andrea.

After a week in Year 1, Hakeem told me that she has a girlfriend name Atiqah. I asked his class teacher about this. His teacher said Hakeem was actually had sort of argument with another boy fighting over Atiqah. And the result was Atiqah chose Hakeem to be her buddy. The best man win..

Hmm….. Hakeem… Hakeem.. in 10 years time, mommy will be worried a lot about you.

Live With No Regrets

“Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Love the ones who don’t just because you can. Believe everything happens for a reason. If u get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life let it. Kiss slowly. Forgive quickly. God never said life would be easy. He just promised it would be worth it.”

This sms I received yesterday in conjunction of “Sister’s Day”. I was so touched when read it. It is indeed all true. As we’re getting older we always seems to think that our life will become shorter n shorter. It could be today or tomorrow we might be taken away by God.

I had a few occasions that I regret so much that I wish I could turn back the clock to mend things. A few times also happened that I should meet a person n I keep delaying it until I receive a call that the person had gone. God knows how I feel n regret at that moment.

There were also times that I’ve hurt somebody’s feelings be it on purpose or unintentionally, the next thing happened was the person walked off from me n having the feeling of resentment thru out the life. I will definitely feel so bad n wish that I could explain n let the person understand why it happened.

As said everything happens for a reason. There are also things happen because u want it to happen. When it turns out as what it’s not expected to be u will carry the regrets, guilt or disappointment on your shoulder.

To me having the regret feeling is not wrong. It shows acceptance of your actions and the effect of them upon yourself and others. If you never regretted your actions/inactions and never showed humility, would you ever truly be at peace with yourself?

Sometimes being naive is great, especially when it means you let go of and forget the things that had upset you so much in the moment. This will teach you to be a better person.

I think I would regret my entire life if I lived it with no regrets.

Guests Coming For Raya

We departed from Alor Setar on early Friday morning. Last year Raya we caught in a terrible jam – 12 hours stuck in the traffic. So this year we tried a different strategy, head off at 5am. The traffic was very good n smooth. We stopped at two R&R n arrived in Shah Alam our home sweet home at 11.30am.

Everybody was so glad n relieved to be home. After an hour rest I went out to the wet market. We have visitor coming the next day for Raya. I managed to prepare rendang daging n boiled ketupat.

The next morning our visitors - my hubby’s cousin Kak Umi n the family from Malacca arrived. I cooked mee goreng plus the ketupat, rendang, cakes n cookies. After my house we went to my SIL house which is just about 5min drive.

At night we met them again. We went to Danau Kota. This was my first time here. I heard about this place from many people n last night at last I got to see the place. It is a place with rows of stalls selling from shoes, clothes, handbags, sunglasses n lots more. They sell an imitation products which some of them are the high grade quality.

The place opens daily at 10.00pm till morning. We were there till 12midnight. Quite interesting place if you plan to shop or else just cuci mata je lah…

Dinner With The Family

Since the day we arrived in Alor Setar, everyday we went to eat nasi mamak. Breakfast roti boom at mee abu, dinner at nasi royale n breakfast again at nasi zam zam. Sampai sakit perut ah semua.. toilet is our favourite place!

Tonight we planned to have seafood for our dinner. My family in Kedah loves to eat. We can sometimes drive to Kuala Perlis to try out ikan bakar or seafood. Sometimes we even went to Penang for nasi kandar.

Tonight we just went to the seafood restaurant at Kuala Kedah. Surprisingly there were many people. Probably dah jemu makan ketupat rendang.

Tonight also we had a surprise birthday celebration for my youngest brother – Boy. He will be 30 years old on the 25th Sept. Since everybody is here, an early celebration has been done for him.

We got the cake for him. This gonna be his last birthday as orang bujang. Next year kena kahwin! So next year will be the final kenduri kahwin in the family.